Living Another Year
So, It is this time of the year when I write shit about myself .. I usually do it in a more in a happy mode but this year I am really sad writing this But people need some tradition that makes them feel connected and my own tradition is to take a step back each year and give it a deep look It helps me realize where I am standing from my goals, Am I living my life or just letting the days pass day after day not noticing that it is my life being wasted for nothing I seem like a very active person so it is hard to believe that I do that but I did that.. I spend years waiting for my life to end naturally not wanting to live it feeling like every decision I take is not mine and that I don’t own my own life Till I discovered I had tumors and death might be looking at me right now, making fun of my miserable defense mechanism of not living the way I want to and not getting attached so I don’t have to have any fights And when I realized what is happening I decided to make it different and